At about 8:30 into this vid, the person talking to Sheen on the phone asks when he'll be posting the footage he's recording to Ustream.
"It'll go up when I feel like the people are ready to receive it," responds Sheen.
Perhaps because Sheen looks so much like his father, I immediately thought of Apocalypse Now, of Willard and Kurtz and Kurtz's lording ways. Then I thought of the opening scene in the movie, when Willard wigs out in a Saigon hotel.
In the scene, Sheen is naked and covered in whiskey and blood. He's doing some sort of freaked out Qigong style moves. It's an intense, brilliant scene that comes to a beautiful end when two MPs come to collect Willard. They step into the room, look at Willard and his destroyed surroundings as if it's something they see every day.
Sheen talks about filming that scene in the following vid:
As Kurtz and Willard danced in the back of my mind, Charlie continued to splinter on the screen before me. I didn't laugh, I just felt sad. Then Charlie's rant segued into talk about a book he intends to market, Apocalypse Me: the Jaws of Life.
As soon as he uttered it, Charlie Sheen was more naked and bloody than his dad was in that troubling Saigon Hotel scene filmed more than 30 years ago, when Charlie was just an impressionable teen and his dad was at once bigger than life and empty as a spent whiskey bottle.
It's about his dad, I thought. Some huge part of this is about his dad.
I sighed, nodded at my dead guys, and felt the sadness inside me melt into tragedy.
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